30 AWD YEARS

by Awdbawl

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kingawdbawl I've been waiting every single day for almost a year for this album cannot wait to listen I don't think I really had the $20 to spend but I don't care.........best day of the year yessssss....
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1.
I’m at the age where you’re lame if you say that you rhyme I may need to make up my mind Is chasing the same shit daily the way it’s designed or Am I just wasting my time Cause I’m late for my prime I say it’s OK and I’m fine And I try to just take it in stride But I dedicated my life To be able to write And I hate that it takes so much time Now I’m late for my prime But every day I wake and I rise Thinking this’ll be the day I decide To take the advice that I say when I’m angry and wave it goodbye Or really try to make up some time But I aint gonna lie I’ve been chasing this high I’ve been wasting away being lazy in life Getting faded I stayed with a glaze in my eyes But save me a place in the line Cause I’m late for my prime Thats why I got my face to the sky Cause I’m knowing damn well that one day I’m a die but Based on the vibe I’d say its that its fine But I’ve yet to get my taste of the cake or the pie So in case I survive what it takes to arrive I’m racing to find my place Cause I’m getting anxious inside And my patience is fried I’m late for my prime And your prime don’t wait for real I’m late for my prime And your prime don’t wait for real I’m late for my prime And your prime don’t wait for real I’m late for my prime And your prime don’t wait for real I said I’m late for my prime And your prime don’t wait for real I think I’m late for my prime
2.
Screens 03:26
Trouble is We have to know whats up and so we double click It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in Our attraction to the ugly Gets us back to feeling lovely But perhaps we all should fucking quit We are in the age of screens Drifting down the data stream Scrolling with a swollen thumb Aint nobody hold their tongue Sifting thru the latest memes Double tap your daily feed Slowly its been over run Photos of the dull and dumb Baby pictures, angry teens Jordan faces, favorite teams Loneliness and phony love Bloated lips, emoji shrugs Vegan bitches, racist things Porno, Vegas, nature scene Voters bitching, global floods No restrictions, POTUS Trump Fade the filter, paint the screen Wake up, fake it, make it seem Pose for selfies, hold it up Overdressed, ain’t old enough Ladies gents and in betweens Pay attention ain’t a dream Every app thats opened up It traps us in this social slump The trouble is We have to know whats up and so we double click It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in Our attraction to the ugly Gets us back to feeling lovely But perhaps we all should fucking quit The trouble is We have to know whats up and so we double click It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in Our attraction to the ugly Gets us back to feeling lovely But perhaps we all should fucking quit I confess I’ve refreshed The browser of my iPhone 6 A thousand times so I can check My lousy likes just like the rest But I don’t feel the need to fill your feed with food that I digest Or use the time that I have left To prove who liked my life the best Nah that ain’t my success I barely reply to texts So I rarely give you guys a glimpse In the library of my life’s events But I’ll share with you what I do best Rhyme very cool I’ve been blessed And I’ve kept private the wife and my kids Thats the side of me that I protect. And I've been told my steez is low, My beats are stole, my cd sucks My rhymes are old, repeating flows Fight me though we’ll see what’s up But I’m no troll that needs to post my beef on social media So why’m I supposed to speak to those who think my soul graffiti sucks Ain’t gone delete it though I’ll link a flow to keep in touch Secret shows and deeper cuts Free to load you keep the buck And I could go and leak my whole complete discography to ya And greet the growing greedy bunch But it’ll never be enough The trouble is We have to know whats up and so we double click It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in Our attraction to the ugly Gets us back to feeling lovely But perhaps we all should fucking quit The trouble is We have to know whats up and so we double click It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in Our attraction to the ugly Gets us back to feeling lovely But perhaps we all should fucking quit Where has it gone I blame it on Amazon We can shop with pajamas on We don’t stand in long lines at Ralph’s or Von’s And drive back when the traffic’s strong Just grab the phone Or a tablet the app is on And door dash a sandwich A ham croisant Its get tracked to your address, handed off Even the tip gets added on It has it all For pets, kids and adults No stress, no mess, no crowded malls No dressing rooms you look fat in, nah Just drag it all in and cram the cart Imagine you have any crap u want All bought with the tap of your magic wand Matter fact that’s sounding bomb Let me click real quick on this hat I saw The trouble is We have to know whats up and so we double click It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in Our attraction to the ugly Gets us back to feeling lovely But perhaps we all should fucking quit The trouble is We have to know whats up and so we double click It’s practically a drug the way we plugging in Our attraction to the ugly Gets us back to feeling lovely But perhaps we all should fucking quit
3.
You may have known that I used to be a stay at home dad All day alone Veda was a baby, oh man I was hanging on Thinking that it may have gone bad But she was like an angel that was laying on land So we would play the most each day, it don’t last That’s why people say that old cliche it goes fast Just a little lady hanging with her old man Trying to make it through the mayhem of a day with no naps I wish that I could bottle up the past And all of the tomorrows that’ll follow but I gotta let it pass Cause every moments gone in like a flash So I’m just glad I got em in my noggin she’s my daughter I’m her dad But she’s growing up quick And I know it won’t quit Cause her only dope kicks are showing they don’t fit She’s the host, I’m a guest Just two virgo’s on a quest With a new ergo on my chest Yes To the precious little queen I held Its been a dream since 2015 until So any minute in between if you need dads help I’ll be there ForEveryLittleThing Thats F.E.L.T. I’m Veda sitting playing instrument songs I may just make a written she won’t listen for long You’re like a mix of ur moms only miniature With a little sisterly charm And a hint of something sinister You’re like what I am only tiny and dwarfed Like a lion, or a tiger or a tyrannosaurus Your not a tyrant till your tired and bored That’s when the violence and war starts And bed times applied and enforced So every night we got a five minute warning That’s our nightly performance It expires then you whine and ignore it So when you’ve finally fallen asleep The wines starts pouring Till you climb out of ur sheets saying hi like good morning I’ve had some time to observe How my five year old works The kid can go from kind to kind of a jerk A lover slash fighter but the lines getting blurred But there’s another side that just might have matured I find she’s surprisingly wise with her words Her first day alive on this earth Didn’t cry after birth Just arrived open eyed and alert I’ve got files of her fiery quirks And yea sure we’ve yelled I tease she tells But I’ve seen my V fight teeth and nail We have beef then peace like beast and belle And then its back to the beach digging deep for shells So to the precious little queen I held Its been a dream since 2015 until So any minute in between if you need dads help I’ll be there ForEveryLittleThing Thats F.E.L.T.
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I began to wake, I think I drank Thats when the blank emerged Stomach taste was purged What a waste of liquid basted courage I Stand up straight and check for places hurting Just the basic service but I couldn’t say for certain  Beyond the standard aches and nerves those pains I ain’t concerned with And so I plant my legs and turned my vertebrae then heard click Reversed it And searched my dirty cave my blurry gaze was worthless So I pulled the curtain shades to let the early rays converge in That’s when the thirst occurred But first my swollen bladder couldn’t hold another drop It was only bulging fatter Lift the seat and piss until it drips complete then drain it And with slippered feet I drifted toward the kitchen’s entertainment I saw abundant empty Monkish cans Filled with guts from blunts and chunks of phlegm But nothing I could trust and then I spied it Hiding was a bottle of some bottom shelf It’s 9 AM I’m not myself I’m dying man this ought a help I tipped it up and sipped on what I hoped would quell this trouble And it’s then I noticed swelling on my knuckles Fuck bro! Every goddamn time Hey yo I’m over this There’s only so much shit a soul can soak in For you’re floating in a mix of mostly piss and open ocean I’m supposed to swig to cope with all the social ticks I’m choked with Or when smoking don’t convince me all my broken bits are roped in But soberness is sold by holy cults that run revivals Indulging in a dose of thumping bibles It’s something of a side show But I know that the bluff seems unreliable When I’d rather just get buzzed once in a while Denial Cause I fully invite this shit I fight bullies with wild threats Then fly into a violent fit Yes I admit that I’m a dick Though I’m a decent striker on the nights I sip I’m lightning quick I’ll strike a left and right you in a micro sec But I ain’t shit Cause I believe I’ve died a bit It’s my diseases side effect Now I’m in need of vitamins Cause I’ve depleted my defense In light of recent night events I might just leave this life and live A quiet peaceful nice existence Minus drinks that I ingest I’m sick of sweating through my sheets and sleeping soggy Of getting headaches in the heat and feeling foggy I think my memory’s incomplete Cause there’s so many missing links I ain’t had anything to drink this week well hardly I’m sick of sipping sodas getting sober on the sofa shook I limp to the latrine these symptoms seem to have been overlooked While laying here let’s say I dare pour some A.M. canine hair I’m way aware the day is here I need to get it going The morning lingers and I’m dazed this isn’t ok Thats when I poured a finger and then chased with some o.j. I feel the clarity return me to my old self This alcoholic therapy will bury me but oh well I’m sorta stuck between I have to and it’s up to me Yet I ignore the bluff and try to cap it at a couple drinks But sure enough whenever drinking with restrictions I always turn up drunk and tend to think it’s a decision It’s no disease it’s just a habit that I oughta lose I’m so relieved when I’m just happy with a Waterloo But if you wanted to then who am I stop ya My suicides with cubes of ice and vodka I got ya I’m sick of sweating through my sheets and sleeping soggy Of getting headaches in the heat and feeling foggy I think my memory’s incomplete Cause there’s so many missing links I ain’t had anything to drink this week well hardly I’m sick of sweating through my sheets and sleeping soggy Of getting headaches in the heat and feeling foggy I think my memory’s incomplete Cause there’s so many missing links I ain’t had anything to drink this week well hardly
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This is less a theory than a hunch And that’s just the sort of serious assumption most are weary to debunk but I’ve gotten clearance to discuss it It aint the most mysterious of subject But it’s weird and kinda suspect If you the public wants to hear as I discuss it let me dissertate the disappearance of the one cents The fact is I ain’t seen any in a month It’s time to get these pair of pennies in bunch Good luck cause Money doesn’t satisfy as advertised But once we heed that bad advice It’s what will lead to man’s demise For now the nuts are what they have us by It’s disruptive but the average guy Is comfortable just standing by Fuck if I can fathom why Money is meaningless Something that they tease us with The one thing we believe and it’s disgusting and egregious Just another scheme they keep adjusting for the zenith Trust me man it’s genius It sucks I couldn’t start it with them But now I’m screaming where’s the justice for the barter system? It don’t take Harvard wisdom To get the gist that theres a twist to making all this income Creating dollar emblems With lots of hints masonic glyphs that make the modern head blown Pass that papyrus strip yo I spy a providence eye high on that pyramid stone And that’s the marker that they watch you with A proclimated Document The spark of many arguments The cost of which quite often strips your conscience of its proper fit It’s the crushing calm of constant debt Money aint the meaning it's the motive Quote it We can all agree that being greedy is the grossest You can be at peace and be the brokest Know this Please do not believe a thing the media has told us Money aint the meaning it's the motive Quote it We can all agree that being greedy is the grossest You can be at peace and be the brokest Know this Please do not believe a thing the media has told us I’ve been trying to muster all the gumption I can gather When I punch in on the clock I’m like a functioning cadaver The hutzpah’s been abandoned These are footsteps of a phantom I could spend what I have Being a husband and a dad But I’m booked Looking for a buck to bless the budget A double check a month is spent, this fucking rent is rubbish Im defeated yet devoted My freedoms been eroded But I treat it as a fee to be immediately focused We don’t need a leader to control us To veto all the voters Cause we are not obedient to POTUS Our needs jus go unnoticed while the scenery is hopeless So it seems to me these meetings have no meaning in the moment so No more leaning on the letter of the law It’s better to be fed up Than have never been involved So instead of trying to settle for the minimalist wage I'm writing this opinionated page To say that Money aint the meaning it's the motive Quote it We can all agree that being greedy is the grossest You can be at peace and be the brokest Know this Please do not believe a thing the media has told us Money aint the meaning it's the motive Quote it We can all agree that being greedy is the grossest You can be at peace and be the brokest Know this Please do not believe a thing the media has told us Can you spare a couple copper coins? Offer up your coffers boys Cough up what it costs to cop the costumes that we all enjoy It’s just a drop inside a bucket You can plop it in his cup amongst the scoffing of the public fucks It seems to me they’re pretty pissy And they’re quick to call the pigs the count was zero Mississippi Then its blitzkrieg So if succeeding means I’m stingy Then I’m leaning to the left and intervening on an instinct I’ll be the mediating middle man And you can be the bait as we debate the subtle synonyms Cause we remember Hammy Lincoln’s legal tender For they sneaked him full of zinc and things thats cheaper to assemble They never meant to mint the metal if it’s costing more We used to trust a pennies scent was like a knob for doors So how much longer till they say that paper dollars isn’t making sense And you exchange your wallet for a data chip?
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Same old stuff a lotta years Just so you are all aware Same old stuff a lot of years It’s the stale subject of failed justice and fallen tears I stay in touch with it but aint enough discussion going on upstairs We’re in constant fear because they want us scared It’s weird the motto that once brought us here Is bring me your impoverished and your bottom tiered Those promises have not adhered We played along then waited longer and we’ve gone nowhere It’s death before dishonor neither Donald or Obama care Lets say you volunteer to march into the college square to acknowledge somethings not as fair Then cops appear and block the way u walk while popping shots of toxic air How in the failed fuck has this become so common here See I’ve been waiting months and their response is clear Steady saying nothin and it’s hard to hear this government is not sincere You can’t make this up the situation sucks beyond repair But heres the latest fluff thats on the air Same old stuff a lotta years Same old stuff we got it year round Today is just tomorrow’s mirror But they adjust it to appear now  Okay enough we got it , yea It’s been awful here Coughing from cops who teargas the people watching near Many were not prepared We’re all just volunteers for our fellow fallen peers So what’s the problem here officer? This ain’t a bluff it's not a dare Same old comfy office chair But say something that u don’t often hear We’ve been stuck on thoughts and prayers This is looking like the publics cross to bear So we should take this up a notch Fuck a cop fuck a cop There aint no love loss not in here nah But they won’t budge cause they hardly care yea They say so what and you can’t make em rush Cause Its been the same old stuff for a lot of years There aint no love loss not in here nah But they won’t budge cause they hardly care yea They say so what and you can’t make em rush Cause Its been the same old stuff for a lot of years We gotta find way this time But we just can’t erase the lines of racism that taints this nations pride Cause hatreds always based in basic lies if you debate they just deny it So let the human race accumulate and fucking riot They label us defiant I blame it on the giants Lay the favorite when the Davids vs. Goliath Cause we can take this guy if we just try it I’m Aiming high adjacent to the eyelids Cause two can play the side of blatant violence But This is nothing new It's an ugly truth If a system is abused then Shit doesn’t improve It's a flawed institution They want us to feud But thats not the solution It’s hard to undo Cause the boss is confusing But FOX interviews him We fought revolutions just to stop what were losing The cops keep on shooting Theres nazi’s saluting We’re caught in a loop and these knots need to loosen Cause hatreds not inherited It’s based on some embarrassment Or maybe its some fake shit that your parents said But either way it's wearing thin Just like the phrase we’re all American Cause thats a flawed experiment thats marauding in arrogance So there it is Go do your worst I dare you pigs Cause We’re the perps that barely flinch Until the first canary kicks You’re either very pissed or clearly you don’t care a bit Thats fair I guess but let me say one sentence and thats where it ends.
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Yo Nobody knows how it’ll play out But I’m a little late Lower middle aged now Sitting center stage and I stay doubting Every day counting the ways in a fit of rage shouting At stray white hairs saying stay right there It’s like a strange nightmare when I face my mirror I wouldn’t say I care but today I dared To let my blank eyes stare and I’ve aged light years so If the secrets simple ima need examples I don’t mean to be resentful but can’t delete the impulse I went from a geek with pimples, then blinked and seen some wrinkles I just hope the time between has been eventful Remember You’re only as old as you feel Well my knees feel old as the hills and I’m sober from pills So I guess I don’t know how to deal Cause my legs don’t hold me as well when it cold and I’m chilled But still As a whole I can deal with the moments The groans and the ills I know its uphill and Its lonely but only until They rebuild my components when cloning is real Yea I know you don’t know what i’m going through I know you don’t know what im going through Yea yea yea yea I’m not what you’ve been told Man that blueprints old I’ve improved the fuses the screws and bolts And then tuned up the loose ends lubed my soul And shed the useless views that I used to hold I don’t lose control Over dudes trying to prove they bold I leave them newbs alone and when that mood is shown I see the clues Thats my to cue to go It aint cool Thank you but no Yo Cause its been Thirty odd years I’m alert and all ears Don’t believe the story y’all hear I used to be a nerd and all weird back before I bought beer But now the smell of bourbons in my dirty long beard yea But so I’m sure were all clear, I feel worry not fear In a hurry not scared Getting blurry now that forty draws near You might have heard its been a Pretty hard thirty odd years I know you don’t know what i’m going through I know you don’t know what i’m going through
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We'd Smoke 02:02
Yo Theres love and hate for this bud debate I for one embrace it for its trusted traits It’s safer than the drugs we take And we’ve begun to make it public, I can puff a j When stubborn, anxious, unengaged Or stuck inside that sunken place But some would say that slope is sorta slippery Then us smokers got the vote and still they don’t support the victory But i could pinch a pinner and become an instant winner For a minute or a month It’s all in the middle and the thumb I got the grinder and some zags Two kinds of ganja in a bag I got the fire I just need a place to burn one So lets go find a spot in back I got some pot that I can pack You wanna try it? light some weed and take your turn but Yo Theres something u need to know It’s the way that we would smoke First u gotta breath in slow Then feel the heat and hold it You just gotta keep control Repeat it cause you need em both But hit it deeper even though Your lungs completely bloated This is an introduction A set of simple instructions To settle myths and assumptions And benefit while your puffin Something to assemble the symbol we level up with But mostly so when it’s lit and we hit it that shit’ll function You split it down the middle then get rid of all that brittle stuff Take your buds and break it up a little till you get enough Get in every bit until it fits, just really fill it up Then with your thumbs you twist it some And lick it with a little tongue If you get it wet you let it sit a bit or it’ll run Plus ain’t nobody trying to have your spit all getting in there lungs When you’ve followed all the steps you’re set and nearly finished up Now with no further interruption flick the bic and hit the blunt But theres something you need to know It’s the way that we would smoke First you gotta breath in slow Then feel the heat and hold it You just gotta keep control Repeat it cause you need em both But hit it deeper even though Your lungs completely bloated
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Its easier to say it with a pen So I wrote a letter to the ladies from the men I know this probably ain’t the way It should begin So let me just get straight into then Ps. Maybe it offends The one that’s just your type can be a typo The weirdo you can like And Mr right can be a psycho The apple of your eye was an ass way back in high school And the fascinating guy from your class now gets an eye roll You could meet the man of your dreams He’ll never seem like the fantasy you frantically fight for Or you can have a chance with a king and you’ll pass cause it seems Like you didn’t feel a spark from the start when it just lights slow They don’t manufacture the kind of man that your after They don’t make a plastic design of a brand new bachelor You don’t stand a chance at just finding a handsome actor And you can’t plan a path where your life’s a romantic chapter so Love the one you’re with for there specificness Everyones significant celebrate your differences And don’t get so caught up on first impressions Cause they’re the worst for guessing Wait until a persons second Cause you can date until you finally find who’s right But don’t get blinded by the sight of every shining armored knight right Cause if you’re waiting for that strong and silent type You might miss the real kind of guy you like Man I’m glad I got a wife Cause I’ve had a lotta life So can u handle some advice? All those fantasies are nice But reality is like … I’m grown I know It’s complicated fasho It’s not the way it’s often stated off the pages of vogue But stop debating bout the mate you ain’t met yet I’ll make you a bet Soon as your patient you’ll be taking that next step But if you race to pretty faces for sex Or only chasing occupations that can pay off your debt You need to face it that’s relationship death Erase those regrets Or lay there naked as they pay there respects See conversations are just basically tests A way to detect You nominate em or you’re wasting your breath You see You can find dimes by the dozens Limes and lemons Guys and women Talking nines and above em How many y’all find that you love em though Thats fine but who doesn’t? Those Totally stubborn wives and husbands so Rise above all the pride your minds stuck in and just dive in Cause love is disguised don’t hide from it You’re depriving your self of the finer side Life is a diamond mine Just gotta find the right one and you’ll be alright And if there shine is not as bright That don’t mean they’re not the kind of guy you like Man I’m glad I got a wife Cause I’ve had a lot of life So can you handle some advice All those fantasies are nice But reality is like… You ladies want the right Height and weight No five foot eights Drive a brand new ride with no license plates Straight ripped with abs All your outfits drip with class Tip in cash, never split the tab Stay patient and clear Never fake sincere Be rarely late And have a great career You gotta clean and cook And read mad books Have good looks and a 13 inch foot With bank that don’t bounce only gains amounts And have a savings account that you ain’t takin out Now if that’s the type of man you like Then ask my wife how she snagged one Ha yea right I’m jus glad I got a wife Cause I’ve had a lot of life So can you handle some advice All those fantasies are nice But reality is like…
10.
Nominees 02:40
Halos horns and homilies We pray to lords and play lotteries Watch pagan porn on Halloween And then the babe is born then bada bing When waging war for god and king Your native norms are not a thing So stay indoors they may enforce The blatant laws of sovereignty They came they conned they commandeered Then claim we calmly volunteered The chains are gone, the game is on The blame is not belonging here We’re played like pawns and all is fair They prey upon our common fears This may involve the mating call That baby’s moms and fathers share The date is on your all prepared Her make ups on with awesome hair No trace of flaws she opts to wear Your favorite thong and hot brassiere Our brains are washed so all thats there Are stains we got from modest wear The angry mob has came and gone I stayed here on my rocking chair Holy hopes and honest deeds Hold the hoaxes hostage He’s been sowing oats for solace And he’s quoting Crowley constantly We’ll slowly roast a slogan while our golden globe gets tarnished green no one knows the nominees an overloaded lottery I’m home alone and hardly seen Folding clothes and gardening My mobile phone it starts to ring I spoke hello who’s calling please No one knows the nominees We’re growing old with rotten rings Jus gloating goats and gossip queens I’m told the whole things obsolete So name the more erotic fling Relations or a shopping spree We fake divorce then hock the ring To pay for more exotic bling Quotes were told of promised piece The votes were polled but not released The skull and bones control the throne they hold the most monopolies These are random rants and ramblings That I hand writ rather handsomely Semantics that I sandwiched into stanzas on a fancy beat Cause I’m a fan of where the faulty and the fractured meet I graph before and after into chapters that I can’t complete So I have not the slightest hint Of how it could or might have been Or if I’m in a place that simulates this pseudo life I’m in I only pick a side if I can win it So if I like the prize thats at the finish I’ll devise a way to get it So I whittled down a wizards staff And wagged it like a magic wand Then whispered words of wisdom As I worshipped wiccan vagabonds Cause no one knows the nominees They’re lonely folks that bottom feed The polls will show we only vote To overthrow democracy They’ve sold there souls for all to see The show is over pardon please I know it blows that’s how it goes I’m going home don’t follow me
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Yo You can hold a fistful of murky crystals And still be a jerk you shit hole, you should know That just cause you love the earth a bunch Don’t mean you get to treat others like dirt ya dunce Isn’t it absurd how religion is observed There’s a victor and a villain pick a winner and it works Only wish upon the wizard when your wickedings the worst Then pick apart the wisdom till it’s willingly obscured This ain’t about if it didn’t or did occur It didn’t but that isn’t my concern Am I spitting out of turn? There’s no need to feel division and defer All because of my decision to revisit what I’ve learned I’m just tripping on how what was written can be burned Maybe hidden till it turns into different than at first If we misinterpret what’s intended to infer Then the whole entire definitions definitely blurred Plus I’ve been digging thru these spiritual crates Trying to steer this interference thru a series of states I’ve made some serious mistakes now I’m weary of faith Cause every surface looks perfect with exterior paint But first you shouldn’t fear to escape Or have to pay to get in, or ever need to hide your hair and your face So pretty much anything more than tips to live better You can bet and be sure there exists a vendetta There’s many acres of the mediocre meditators Mainly meaning most are measly meta fakers It ain’t the mat that makes us or our dramatic faces It’s the chance to take the path of unimagined places There’s lots of leeches And lost imposters The flocks of sheep with uniquely toxic chakras But talk is cheap so you need to watch your mantras And that mudra that your using is unusually obnoxious I hope you notice that you come off so precocious Spouting quotes from hoaxes That amount to close to no sense But here I go venting holier than thou Thinking that my hocus pocus is the only one that counts You can hold a fistful of murky crystals And still be a jerk you shit hole You should know That just cause you love the earth a bunch Don’t mean you get to treat others like dirt ya dunce
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I’m deep into a mental trance Feeling each sense enhance I think I left to fast No exits for a second chance I go to check my hands and suddenly my eyes awoke To fractals that you find in mostly cracked open kaleidoscopes I try to hold in several kinds of whoa I spied designs inside those spiraled lines of code thats unidentifiable What have I exposed My unbiased mind is blown My environments a lie Am I alive to die alone That’s when my center flipped and sitting in my swivel chairs A figure faintly feminine thats fading in then isn’t there And she would switch it up from angel to beelzebub From hellish back to heavenly depending if she felt the love But if she couldn’t something hooded with a cloven hoof would Show up and close the book to blow up any hope for good but I used a mudra to diffuse my moods anxiety And that’s what helped me loosen what accumulated silently I saw this humanness’ luminescent live stream And soon was sent back zooming through the universe at high speed It freed my ego and released me from its clutches Then deleted the beliefs that I would previously puppet What I was warped thru may be more than I can mention But the moral I absorbed is now the source of my connection See I was shown a door to where immortals forge their power Now that was a historic quarter hour But I’ve seen demon things in basements And deities with real recent facelifts All of theses were DMT adjacent So if we agree on taken one Well Then thats Liam Neeson basic Lets try to go for three and see the matrix Cause I don’t get afraid when in that maze of madness I just try to make it last then make it back so I can practice I’ve gone on lots of bad trips and went guano bat shit Finally got it back when I seen god on blots of acid but If it’s your first attempt it doesn’t hurt to prep and ready Just follow certain steps but don’t forget your set and setting I like to burn incense and take a few asserting breaths Then quench my thirst and stretch without a hint of urgentness Just take a pinch and make your herb enriched Prepare to feel the surging turbulence The perfect mix of birth and death I was left with permanent burned imprints where my learnings kept And still I can’t determine if it’s real or just an urban myth.
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Who’s that the corner of my eye sees? I need you to move back I warning you politely Morning noon and nightly I’m stuck it with what else can I say But the get the fuck up out my negative space Yo I got this little dark outline That gets traced into my shape when I go outside I can’t leave without mine It only seems to follow in the day though I see it sneaking up and seek my solace where the shade grows But it takes practice walking in pitch black If the filament is cracked Then my silhouette is absent And still it’s like I’m never left alone My second self keeps showing up Like every step is known So instead of trying to run I’m becoming numb And detaching from my shadow in the sun Cause there can be only one I got a bogey on my six Sometimes it’s hard to notice like it’s totally eclipsed Shit is low key as it gets I’m not sure of the appropriate defense It’s not posing any threats at least for now but I’m not holding any breaths I’d leave my demon at the door But it jus squeeze in even more It seems it’s only evenings that it’s easily ignored you see I filed the forms I’ve even ordered restraints My smile is worn so there’s really not much more I can take It’s like I’m sitting with a stranger That lays low till the rays are in its favor A scape goat thats blamed for misbehavior This is the doxxing of my not so distant dark half My carbon copy opposite, a contradicting broadcast I’m constantly adopting every optimistic stop gap And I’m not convinced the stalkings gonna stop yet I still can’t figure what I’m looking at Cant pick it up or put it back Its quick as fuck and stuck under my foot agin Maybe it’s the boogie man Maybe I’m just pushing what it could of been But I’ve been seeing footprints where my loogie’s land yo I put a wooden wedge between us but it wouldn’t budge I used my foot to stretch the seams ,it wasn’t good enough I tried to rip it but I really didn’t move it much And I couldn’t snip the stitches so i’ll just assume its stuck 10 They label it a fact of life A daily thing a lack of light A staining of unnatural night These aliens are acting bright But half the time it’s closer to the ghost of a friend when it approaches though it’s mostly pretend Cause there can be only one
14.
What if you from the future came And showed you what ensued the next few decades Would you do the same? Would your views end up new and changed This is the Two Player Human Game We all move where we used to aim Cause what we used to doesn’t suit today But we do okay we’ll just keep moving babe There are no rules in the Two Player Human Game As we cruise deeper thru the maze It’s confusing so we’ll make a few mistakes Don’t assume its safe, no continue or saves You pay your dues in the Two Player Human Game When there’s trouble that moves your away Share the struggle we’ll double up beautifully We’ll keep doing it till me and you remain Shoot me your user name Two Player Human Game It takes more than a quarter to press in the slot More than the best shit you bought, expensive or not It’s more than the check that you’ve got Even more than your mortgage, investments and stocks More than you’ve kept in a box in your dresser with socks It’s more than you’ve spent and forgot But the more that I mention the topic The more that you question its welcoming plot If you’re perplexed by the thought of an audience watching ya Please let me help you be part of it Self represent or be stealth and anonymous I recommend the two player cooperative When you’re ready for all of this Check on the box that you’ve read all the bottom print But you better be positive honest It’s 24-7 each level goes on a bit Now lets prep for the part Make an impression, reflect who u are Dare to invent an adventurous romp in the settings to spend with whomever you want Once you’ve elected to start you’re sent to the depths of the park Just step thru the entrance, connect with your partner The rest of your quest will be effin bizarre What’s the intention you want? Is it wealth, is it health, Is it selfish or solvin shit? Is it helpful or harmful? Whatever u want if it’s felt you should follow it I guess it depends on whose on the sticks Cause some people win but aint got assists When I get to the end ima sit in the sand With a drink in my hands and I’m pausing it What if you from the future came And showed you what ensued the next few decades Would you do the same? Would your views end up new and changed This is the Two Player Human Game We all move where we used to aim, ……cause what we used to doesn’t suit today But we do okay we’ll just keep moving babe There are no rules in the Two Player Human Game As we cruise deeper thru the maze It’s confusing so we’ll make a few mistakes Don’t assume its safe, no continue or saves You pay your dues in the Two Player Human Game When there’s trouble that moves your away Share the struggle we’ll double up beautifully We’ll keep doing it till me and you remain Shoot me your user name Two Player Human Game Two Player Human Game It’s the Two Player Human Game You can play it alone But the name of the song is the Two Player Human Game Two Player Human Game It’s the Two Player Human Game I’ve been playing too long Every day I’ve been on it the Two Player Human Game
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HighLowLife 03:16
I’m known to be bi-polary, But it’s not a psycho disease I just feel highs overly And my lows are deep, A high lowlife, no between‘s Yo But may I please suggest you don’t believe the myths cause Something don’t seem correct How’s a human being deemed depressed by some shrink who says After seeing them a single sesh That he thinks maybe these are best That old evil trick, take these as needed if And while the ink is fresh you head to cvs to pay a fee per fix But you don’t need the scripts Use placebos perceived effect and you can ease your stress Just repeat deep peaceful breaths When each leaves my chest I feel relief and less freaked I guess So I don’t seek the meds, I’m just me instead Although I’m keen to catch a mood swing with a mean intent A rude dream that jus came and went It’s routine but may seem intense if you aint seen or sensed This inhumane main event But I’ve trained for this day in depth I’ve obeyed the steps I’ve sought sages and gained respect Was taught phrases from ancient texts and retraced the steps Through the maze my impatience left So when I stray from that place I lift up Embrace every day I get cause That’s just the way life is when your brains like this …… Like this like this like this like this Cause I’ve tried everything I have read, I exercise and stretch, I synchronize my breaths I go outside for fresh air to unwind the stress And yet inside my head, I still find a mess I guess my minds infested with all types of traps That’s when they might suggest you come inside for a minor test Then they can finally assess and define it best Put a light in your eyes move it right to left Ask all types of questions bout your life’s events I guess that I should let this guy who I just met decide if I’m depressed Its fine that I’m inept in this kind of science tech Cause he’s the wisest psychiatrist I have met, but what if I object What if a lie’s detected in his eyes a bit Does he get bribed? I know theres something he’s hiding man I’m convinced So yes I’m terrified to take a psych med Is there a side effect I might get Cause I’m embarrassed and shy to share that I’m sick And my symptoms barely apply so where do I fit? I quit Who gives advice for this? Who’s kept nice statistics and deciphered it? Am I just slight depressed ? Could I just light some incense and just write instead? That could align my zen Lets analyze the best method to fight this in Before we start testing all types of mixed Intense S.S.R.I.’s for kicks Anti depressants just hide the life lessons you find when your kinda stressed Confess Cause one tablet by mouth twice daily is just a drug habit some clown prescribed vaguely but what would it feel like If you could just suddenly feel right Could it be real or just a sugary pill What would it reveal and whose footing the bill Cause all these pharmaceuticals Are doing more harm than usual
16.
Next 02:37
Yo My name is Awd the phonetics it may trouble you It’s short for Awdbawl but its spelled with an a-w And you can get it wrong as long as somebody gets it Just listen to the song and I promise you’ll probably dig it I’ve been at it for a minute Two if your trying to count Proudly independent At times I be signing out And when my focus falls I stall from getting bored And I deal with broken balls like Pawl should give it more cause I can hella rip it like your favorites do I used to think that selling tickets equaled paying your dues But now I’d rather write a page than be live on a stage I traded flyers with my name for a reliable wage So it’s officially a hobby Sorry everybody Cause you probably wont be streaming this shit But if you’re listening and bobbing your head like this shit is solid I got lots of new material go see if it fits Cause I’m an e-m cee Aint trying to t-n-t I’m trying to focus on the fam Making these ends meet Cause I’m an e-m-cee If you could Please let me Just do a song and move along N- e - x- t Yo Dont get me wrong I could be doing more But there’s a hidden side to rap And i’d like to keep you informed But you can be assured To get bored if I talk specifics Bottom line it’s either art or it’s a business So listen I was never established Though I’m better than average But that’s just in my humble opinion And not to be pessimistic But even the best to spit it come up short I’d say its one in a million So hats off to the cats who still rap there ass off Regardless of the heads in the crowd step up and bow And a tip of the cap to those that kick it in the lab Cause thats truly where the best can found repping it proud Yo like it or not I ain’t likely to stop I handle bars like I’m a bicycle shop Typing savant So if your nice off the top Or can write on a topic You need to drop it Thats the life of hip hop I ain’t forgot Cause I’m an e-m cee Aint trying to t-n-t I’m trying to focus on the fam Making these ends meet Cause I’m an e-m-cee If you could please let me Just do a song and move along N- e - x- t Cause I’m an e-m-cee Ain’t trying to t-n-t But the thought of ever stoppings Kinda depressing Cause I’m an e-m-see I’d say it’s the best thing So to all of you producers I need fresh beats Come on N-e-x-t

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released April 4, 2022

written by Awdbawl
production by Vallo, Lost Lane, & Chaz Rox
recorded, mixed & mastered by Vallo @ SouthBaySounds
art by Danny Garcia
designed by Eric Trujillo

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